I’m sorry to hear that, and I know this can be very difficult. You may be able to come up with new strategies to meet your need as times goes on, but I have another proposal for now:
Let’s take a step back from our strategies for a moment and look at the broader context of this situation. We generally don’t experience only one feeling or need at a time, and it’s possible that there are other needs at play here, influencing your reactions to this situation, that you may not be completely aware of.
Especially you’re very attached to a particular strategy, there may be another need arising out of this situation (or from other situations in your life).
I know this can be frustrating. You accomplished a great deal in getting to this stage and identifying your feelings and needs. You have every right to be proud of yourself! I’m proud of you.